quote wiki: “Tai chi’s gentle, low impact movements burn more calories than surfing and nearly as many as downhill skiing.”

ok that makes me want to go for tai chi in the morning but it’s a rare chance to sleep in. i badly need exercise.. but given that it’s almost 3 am already, it’s too late to change my mind about waking up early.

i should do a proper update about how china’s been but, not now lah. it’s always more appealing to go and sleep.

oh i can say i lost my iphone. arghh!!!!!!! no contacts, nothing also though i still have my sg sim card. so those of you who have been messaging me, sorry but i don’t know who you are!

in wuhan now!

i had a really bad dream last night, the first night at the hotel. very likely my worst dream ever. i got a call from mainey from aust and she was trying to tell me in between sobs to look at page x in the newspapers. so i turned and saw that a good old friend of mine, sumin, died all of a sudden and i was sobbing and wailing really, really badly at the newspaper report, so much so that i didn’t even read the details of the report. it was the sudden-ness of it. the facts are a little different from real life in that the report said a medical student in aust or nz doing very well, very intelligent and who had good prospects (she actually studies in singapore). but i think i sobbed even more badly cause i realised she was going to hell and would never know God, and i couldn’t do anything thing about it anymore, for all eternity. and i wished with all my heart things would be different, cause i think it wouldn’t have been so bad if i at least knew she was in a better place and there was nothing to be grieved about. i felt so bad cause i did nothing to pray for her, to wish for her that she would know Jesus and complacently thought i have forever to do so. well fortunately, a while later i realised this could in fact be a dream and after i got out of my ‘character’ i could hear my own loud sobbing, opened my eyes very very quickly and shut myself up cause i was worried i would wake my roomie up. and headed back soundly to sleep.

its dreams like this – one where i had breast cancer, i think another where someone was dying too – that make me re-think how i should be living my life, and that it is so possible that these things we think we’ll be immune from for a long time more could really happen. in torts, we learned that one way to interpret an x% chance, even a less than 1% chance, is that in 100 people, 1 person would get it, and it could equally be you as much as it could be any of the other 99. i should stop being complacent.

my roomie said she thinks she remember hearing me last night. oops. yes it was really bad.
just checked on sumin at her blog. it’s last updated on 6 dec but um, i think she’s fine? argh i can’t get facebook here in china!

2 more days. no!!

i don’t know why i’ve been having trouble falling asleep every night recently. arghh whatever is wrong with me?!

i wish i could do contract all over again; i promise i’ll read up before going for lectures, like small mac or the slides/notes and pay full attention during lectures and not doze off. and read my cases for tutorials too. as i read through the slides now i can only remember what was taught in lectures very vaguely, and those normal school days were much better times, more carefree. kinda like just forget everything once you close your laptop when lecture ends. bearing the consequences now and know i should have had greater foresight then.

contract… ARGH!

Last night when I was sleeping
You were watching over me
While I dreamt about tomorrow
You knew my every need

Now another day is waiting
For me to make it through
And there's no way that I could face it without You

Before the day slips away
I want to stop and say
I love You I love You
Before the world rushes in again
I want to stop and say there's none above You
There's none above You
I'll just be still and know You are God
Be still and know You are God

There's something about the morning
The stillness of it all
It calms my heart to hear You
When You gently call

Here I am in Your presence
Where I long to be
Alone with You in the silence
Bring down Your love and Your mercy
Whisper softly to me

life is dull when all you do is wake up at 8, go to the school library and mug, reach home at 11, study some more, sleep at 2+ and repeat the same thing the next day.

rawr. =(

need to get more sleep tonight. my mind was so unwilling to cooperate the last hour plus.

i like law i like law (convincing myself).

k actually i was so tired/sian that i stopped at the canteen for a while and had breakfast (coffee and curry puff) after getting my torts casebook from the locker. sat alone at the bright side beside all the cars, let the morning sunlight get to me, pondered over the numerous topics i have left to study and the days left to torts (which i can count with my fingers), decided to open my casebook for a while instead of heading straight back to the library and read. so i read Sidaway and learnt something, and am excited to add it to my muggers right after this. k so actually i really like law lah. =) well at least torts is way more interesting than contract. dread having to mug contract everyday after the torts paper.

back to work xue ting. you are in the company of many! (lol)

finishing stat memo yesterday was such a torture, mainly because of the terrible citation and word count chore. i spent ages finding one citation quote and still didn’t find it in the end. and i’m sure half of my citations are wrong anyway. but it was still a day of SO much laughter that it made up for everything. i’ve never laughed so much doing a piece of work before. my lawr tg mates are awesome. grace left early yesterday, sebas left at night while i stayed on with sherlene baldwin rich and shuojie till 11 when they submitted at the very last minute to eat at macs. never go to school on a sat without a car cause there’s NO food around at all. school should at least sell instant noodles in the vending machines lah. anw there was no dinner and my stomach was completely empty and growling that my fats must have started burning. oh yah, so school yesterday was actually fun lah. awesome tg mates and sherlene surely brightens everyone’s day =)

 

80% done! going to bed and will be in school again today to settle a prob i have for a point, cut words and do citations. yay, finally. almost there!

i’m looking forward to post-submission.

i can’t believe i just wasted x minutes of my life reading xiaxue’s blog. though some of her comments are caustically funny. but still, remember in future it’s ok never to read it even if every other person reads it or talks about it, and even if she won nuffnang’s region’s best blog and most influential blog (how in the world??!!). perhaps it’s just unlucky that i read it after reading thio li-ann’s views on religion, atheism, secularism, nation state, politics etc. in the President’s Address and her journal articles. What a gulf in intellect between the two writings!!! I gasp at how much precious time and energy ppl can waste on trashy entries. Ok i’m bordering on being a snob, but seriously, region’s best blog and most influential blog??!!! Leads me to think maybe the Nuffnang Awards is a joke itself.

note to self: hang in there till sat, when stat memo will be over! ugh i’m just really uncomfortable and not confident about the state of my stat memo and research now..

to chong ming and tiffany, if you’re reading this, yes i still owe you guys email replies. sorry i’ll do it when i’ve more time to!

oh just an update, i’ve accepted the wuhan programme offer. shall hope to be seeing isaac and/or xinling in china after the programme too. haven’t gotten in touch with them… and the phuket trip with my og in early jan is confirmed too! the coming hols looks exciting.

stupid rain in sao paulo. a qualifying race that should have been only 45 mins has dragged for 2 hours and still has 12:24 mins of q2 left. i should give up on it and go to sleep. but… it looks like it’s starting again soon cause the weather’s clearing up! ugh i should be snoozing comfortably in my bed now.

anw actually sao paulo seems nice. the crowd is so enthu despite the rain and would randomly start cheering together.

well talking about dec plans, i got offered this 4 mc module offered by fass to go to wuhan uni in dec for 3 weeks and learn about china. i applied it half year ago for the june program but it got postponed into a winter program because of h1n1. surprising actually, cause i sorta forgot all about it. besides, i’m in law now and don’t know if i need a 4 mc module and whether i can even map it over. i don’t care much about the 4 mcs, though. i would do it even without any modular credits. it seems to have a nice balance of study/lectures and play – cultural exchange, fieldtrips, r&r -. would be a great way to learn about china, plus there’s a part about law in china which i’ll be very interested in. moreover, the course is subsidised and costs only $700! now the downside is i don’t know anyone else going for it, and presumably none from law, and there’s assesments of projects, presentation and a final exam i think. it’s prob alright even if i fail, but it won’t look very good huh. also, perhaps the bigger consideration is i’m sorta ’supposed’ to go backpacking with subhi and jon chye. we don’t have any plans yet though. haven’t decided where to go but it seems like we all want to go somewhere in dec. val was supposed to come too at first but she got accepted for her ocip. i’ll feel bad if i suddenly back out too!

so should i accept the wuhan module? it seems like a very good offer, but the assesment puts me off a little and it might require sacrificing a backpacking trip with friends.

ok f1 q2 is re-starting in 4 mins. too bad, i think i’m heading for bed soon. shall just check the results in the morning..